That was a question posed at a Women’s Retreat I attended last weekend. The speaker was talking about how fear paralyzes us – fear of rejection, fear of looking foolish, fear of failure. It could go on and on really.
So this is the question I’ve been pondering since Saturday:
I would write a book and lead training seminars for preschool volunteers.
(“Preschool volunteers” as in people who volunteer to teach preschoolers at church. Not as in preschool age children who are volunteers. Although that would be fun too.)
I would write about how to effectively communicate the love of Jesus to preschoolers, because this is the one thing I think I’m pretty good at. As challenging as it can be sometimes, I am energized teaching a room full of hyped-up rowdy four and five year olds on Wednesday nights.
It breaks my heart to see a classroom out of control, or kids that look like they would rather be anywhere but church. (That only happens at other churches of course. Never my own. Ahem.)
I think it’s fear of looking foolish that keeps me from attempting to write. Comparing myself to incredible writers and speakers makes me think I could never write or say anything that anyone wanted to hear. Who do I think I am anyway? What makes me qualified to tell someone how it should be done?
I fear I could not come up with anything that hasn’t already been said before. I fear I could never be eloquent enough to adequetely express myself.
I also fear that I could never be organized enough to take care of my husband and children, and still somehow find time to write a book. And that one is a biggie!
So – I’m tucking that dream away for now, praying as I’m in this crazy season of raising my children and doing my best to keep the dishes and laundry clean, the dream will continue to grow. And that as my confidence grows the fear will subside!
So writing a book is one thing. There are other things I would do if I weren’t afraid, but they aren’t as easily articulated….
What about you? What would you do if you weren’t afraid?